Take it up

It's been a while.

I am back in KW. Between having to get my OSAP, my new bus pass.. and getting back into routine of class. I am somewhat overwhelmed. I should not be but, I have been lucid-dreaming. It's killer. >.<

I am having a few people over this weekend to enjoy a few drinks, and I guess more to socialize with my class. I don't spend much time getting to know them so this is the opportunity. 

I have realized that reading is an expensive habit. I read the Twilight series VIA PDF files. So I saved about 40 dollars there. I bought two new books. The Killing Cycle and Submarine. I would write the details but the books are on the ground and I have monstrous cramps not allowing me to bend that way.

So I will try and blog again soon. I am almost done Submarine. I will let you all know how that goes. :)

Peace ladies and boys.

SJF

RIP bella and edward :(

Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, Breaking Dawn

I would like to say one thing.

I feel completely empty.

I finished the last book in Stephenie Meyer's Twilight series. 

Props to her for making me miserable when not hearing about Bella and Edward.

I am considering reading them all over again, I read them all in about a week, a little less. And the movie doesn't do it for me because it misses so much information.

Honestly guys, if you liked the movie you will love the book, which will in turn make you love the movie even more because you will understand the intensity of Edward and Bella's love.

Sigh.

I miss you guys.

SJF

Music - what it do

Don't you find it weird that you can listen to one familiar song, one song, like looking at a picture of you and an old friend. A million things rush through your head, different moments - memories. But just one feeling in the pit of your stomach like someone reached right through your skin and played with it like a stress ball. 

The intensity of this feeling is what gets me. Why? Was the time of your life so prominent that it had to be conveyed in the type of music, the specific song that you loved at the time? Seriously, why a song? You would think it would be a word, I could say fuck, shit, love, lost, hurt, fall, drink, eat, sad, mad.. but no emotion is attached to those words. What is music that makes your feelings spark up? You would think that I would have an answer for you. But I have nothing but a question. Why? Why is the brian so powerful, or maybe lack power in a way. Shouldn't millions of things pop in your head after every word? That sentence as I wrote it was completely meaningless. However I could write out lyrics after lyrics that I could scream at the top of my lung, tap my foot to, and know exactly when the guitar.. the piano.. and then more importantly when my emotions kick in. 

I am mad because I listened to a song that I love, and it is just attached to such a crappy time in my life that I want to avoid it like the plague. It just made me realize how I could go through every song on my play list and attach a month to it. Proof?

The Spill Canvas - Self Conclusion - January 2008

Metric - Grow Up and Blow Away - February 2008

Less Than Jake - The Brightest Bulb Has Burnt Out - March 2008

Ingrid Michaelson - Masochist - April 2008

From Autumn To Ashes - Short Stories With Tragic Endings - May 2008

Devilfish - Devilfish - June 2008

Sublime - Boss DJ - July 2008

Remy Zero - Fair - August 2008

Regina Spektor - Consequence of Sounds - September 2008

Ben Folds Feat. Regina Spektor - You Don't Know Me - October 2008

T.I - Whatever You Like - November 2008 (Don't judge me)

AMEN.

None of them particularly effect me lyrics-wise. Just brings me back to either the shitty, or good times of that month. 

So September just fucked me when listening to music. Thought I would let you know.

SJF.

Conflict of Interest

Cheating?

I do not worry about this in my own relationship. It is in others. 

When do you decide when enough is enough? Two good friends are dating and now both cheating on each other. One is new to it, and basically does it in spite of the other doing it. When learning of this cheating, what do you do? 

I have been faced with this for the past 5 hours. What did I do?

I told my boyfriend. Seems proper. He expressed that he felt the need to tell this person, me thinking that hell, it's about time something is done about this improper couple... said do what you think is right.

In turn he told the long-term cheater, about the new comer. 

Thus, explaining why I am up right now. 

Reason being...

My cellphone vibrates much too heavily. Sigh.

I am about to watch Serpico with my roomie though. I woke him up so he could enjoy the all nighter with me. He's a good sport. 

I've had a drama infested few days, I do take the blame a bit for tonight though.

Rawr.

SJF.

AH! EXCITEMENT

I applied to intern at Qatalyst today. AHHH.

Finished my resume, my sister designed it up for me.

I cannot wait to hear back. Hopefully good news. 

SJF.

Fairytale of New York

"You took my dreams from me when I first found you"

"I kept them with me babe. I kept them with my own. Can't make it all alone, I built my dreams around you."

A more personal direction

So, I made a bunch of videos before I left for the weekend thinking I would post them to inform you that I was not going to blog for a good 4 days. Not like there are many followers anyway.. Well according to my page there are 0. It's all good though. 

Anyway, the reason I didn't blog just so happened to be that I did not have any access to internet. Which ended a lot better than I thought. Let me outline the last few days for you.

THIS WEEKEND = 2 day old garlic bread, lingerie and JACK DANIELS

Thursday:

I had a really big paragraph here. But I figured I would slim it down for you. 

- FUCK YOU 18 

- 7A bus your my new best friend.

- bus bus bus train car ride 

- home. perfect. bed. jesse.

Friday:

This one can be clumped all in one. Basically I slept in a bit, got up around 9 and got my stuff together for pictures with other Stacey. Did that, got back home around 11. Started drinking around 1pm for Jesses birthday. The night is a blur, but I gave Jesse his presents and he loved them. It was perfect, and just what he needed. A little bit of the family-love feel, and best friends. I thrived off his pure happiness, the smile on his face brings tears to my eyes. But, enough of the sappy stuff because I will start crying. (sucks back tears).  We had an amazing night with everyone. 

Saturday/Sunday: 

Jesse got up a bit earlier then I did, 10am, I apparently felt like I got hit in the head with a couple bricks so sleeping til 3pm was a MUST. 

We laid in bed all day, Jesse didn't feel good. But it was again.. perfect. Very nice to just chill and enjoy each others presence. 

Sunday went about the same, Jesse felt really sick so he had to call in for work, we laid in bed all day. Soon enough it was time for me to be at the train station. Saying bye.

I am going to write something tomorrow that is a little more personal for once. I won't do it much a swear. Just gotta sleep now. 

Night all!

SJF.